I�m a tiny bit messy (means I�m sooo messy!) � I�m about to sign for a half year course in the Nurembergian public evening school. � This would could cost me 120 Euro, but because since 2 years I got only a halftime job I got something like a Nurembergian passport, which gives me cheaper prices for entrance in museums, opera, theater etc. � For this course in public evening school (Volkshochschule) it would mean 60 Euros instead of 120 Euros.
So because today I wanted to sign for that class which starts end of February � yesterday late in the evening I started looking for that pass on the place it ought to be, to put it in my city bag. � At first it wasn�t on the place where it ought to be, then it it also wasn�t on the place where it should be, but when much later on it wasn�t even on places where it probably could be � I knew I head a real problem. � There are millions of places in my small overloaden attick flat � there are shelves up to the ceiling with trillions of books, a lot of CD�s, Videos, & all kind of obscure stuff, there are staples of papers & letters & important notes in every corner.
Ok I have my system, where I put things & if they�re in the right staple or region I usually find them relative quickly.
But if I put an item in a somehow half unconscious state of mind on a place where it deliberately doesn�t belong & forget about that place, I�ll never find it again, especially not if I search for it. � Of course I will find it again, if I search for something quite different.
Well yesterday I gave up after an research of half an hour. � tomorrow when I come home from my job I�ll do a real sorrow searching. � in fact I searched this evening for more than 3 hours an every possible place, knowing, that if it was an impossible place (which are 10 times as muchs than the possible ones) I had no chance.
After 3 and a half hour I gave up. � The nice side effect of my searching was, that I had thrown away lots of useles papers filling about a mill bag & some places in my rooms seemed a bit larger & tidied up.
I accepted the thought that I had now to pay 120 Euro for that seminar.
When later in the evening I made me a snack in the kitchen & went back to my PC to visit my realm of news, blogs & mails, I watched a blue book lying on the floor. � Of course it was not lying on the floor � it was lying on another book lying on the floor. - & something like the envelope of a letter was slightly protruding out of it, apparently a bookmark. � I�ve seen that book on that place a hundred times before in an unconscious state of mind, because you just don�t notice things you see regularly. � But my mind was still in a kind of search mode & could it be? � I bent down, groped that book & the envelope within contained my missed Nurembergian passport. �
So tommorrow I can sign in & I hope it�s not too late, because there are only 10 places available in that course.
& do you know what a grave to any paper a book is. � Usually if you don�t read that book again you will never ever find that piece of paper again. � I remember long time ago, that I found one 100 DM in a book I read after long time again, which I apparently had thought to be a safe place to hide money before. � No - books are no safe place to hide any paper or money . They just swallow it & it�s lost for ever.
And it�s really strange: the book which held that pass, was �Like once David� by �Hans Habe� an Jewish-German author, written in the 60ies, telling his impressions on a visit to Israel in that time. � I have that book since my youth & recently had put it out of my book shelves to find some numbers of Palestinean refugees & Jews refugees otherwise, I remembered he had remembered there. � The funny thing is, that the course I�m about signing in is an Hebrew (Ivrit) language course & the only book in my hundreds of books referring to Israel swallowed the passport I needed for the announcement. � What a coincidence!
