& sometimes I can't stand it anymore -
the rare drops of beauty are sometimes hard to be found
"I came so far for beauty.." (L.C.)
well I have my (maybe tricky) ways to always be surrounded by beauty or even glimpses of it - but I see that so much people live in a hell of ugly world - all day long & may transport that inspiration to their all night long - no escape - a miserable life - may get drunk to stand it -
there life millions & millions an ugly hard life, with ugly surroundings, while a small minority by chance, by luck, by richness or inheritance live in a sweet, nice & comfortable surroundings
I just watched a report of a town in Russia, Sibiria, where a whole town lives from gaining platin from mines there - the whole town looks like sheds & barracks - poor surroundings - hard work - most men drink wodka all evening long - the women lament about that - but there is just no escape of the uglyness of that town - well may another drink?